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The Butterfly Effect! :D

2009-07-01T02:40:00.000-07:00

if i had the power to change what has happened in the past, i would. i love these nights! movie nights!!! :DD i dont feel ignored! if im just going to be ignored i dont need your call. omg i love the movie the butterfly effect!!! it gets me sad!!! :[ i love "Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis" this movie introduced meh to that song! but dang it! its soooo late! hahahs ughh!! :[ i need to catch up on my sleep soon. or just not pay attention to it. hehe. i miss you soo much. but yet you cant even call. it may be my fault or is, but before i always called no matter what, when i knew something was wrong. i bet you just talk about it. hah. how you just typed bye, with nothing in it. that made me happy. Ughh im sooo tired of school :[ no more school! no more school! pleaaase!! :[ hahahahs! damn it... i dont want to sing in a pageant show bc my voice it fucken ugly! :[ but since i guess you have no one really to turn to, i will sing with you in front of a huge audience :x :] hahahas damn it!!! :[ its not time to learn a new song! n try to sing the best i can!!! :[[ super long practices needed now!!!! hehehe ahhh hahahas. well i will now sleeep :D nigh nights!

so many things just blocking out.. is it really a good thing to be happy when its all just a lie.

FUCK YOU!

2009-06-30T19:25:00.000-07:00

ughhhh!!! fuck you head!!!! sdkl;fjaskl;djfl;asdj;l!!! i have a killer headache!!! :[[[ thanks QUYEN!!!!! ;[[ LOL!!!!!! juuuuuust kiiiiiidiiiinnng!! ;D i swear i didnt do (cheese) LOL!!!!! HAHAHAHAS!!!! damn it.. i have to go to a "meeting" in a bit.. but my head hurts sooo much!!! FUCK!!! like FUCK FUCK!!!! omg.... -_- stupid past... why does she always show me pictures of when i had long hair.. UGH ;[ hmm maybe now imma spend my nights doing this heheheheh :P

You Can't Help Me Anymore

2009-06-14T18:46:00.000-07:00

no one can understand the pain. the hate. the feeling. the reason why people dont tell certain things is because they only care about the people that know. the only reason i was told one thing wasnt because _ cared as much to tell me. it was only because i dont matter as much. there is a pain that i somewhat share but totaly different. i tell a lot of people my problems. people usually just want to be heard, only want someone to listen to them. i dont care if anyone listens, i just want the help part. but if you cant understand what i have been through my whole life, how can you understand me.* lol its been running through my head idk why -_- hahas... fuck my life..

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

2009-06-13T01:08:00.000-07:00

so many things running through my head right now! i feel like bursting!
but f everything! whatever. i dont want to think about it anymore.
sooo my tv is screwed :[ stupid dtv ]: no more tmz, king of queens and one on one<3
but w.e stupid tv hahas. i want summer to be here. maybe i might actually go to the
beach more often. i cant wait for the three exciting things that is going to happen!!
well that hopefully happen :[ but im not going to tell you what they are! hah!
LOL jk i will because i have nothing better to do LOL wait... yes i do! my love is calling
meh right now mauahahahs but i guess i will finish this... just this last thing
hmmm oh ya road trip!!!<3>
n RAGING WATERS!!!! WOOOSHA!!!! bye loves! ;D

I Know..

2009-06-09T00:57:00.000-07:00

... :t

i remember when you didnt see me the same way.
i remember when i had just about given up.
i remember deciding if i should go to australia.
i remember the reason for not going.
i remember trying to prove a point about going to your house.
i remember i was proven wrong.
i remember not wanting to go.
i remember trying to avoid going.
i remember seeing you.
i remember it hurt.
i remember you flirting with me.
i remember flirting too.
i remember trying to hold your hand.
i remember you confused.
i remember you saying "you dont know"
i remember the pain that struck.
i remember not going to give up.
i remember it worked.
i know i love you.
i know its true.
i know your the star in my heart!<*3
... :* [:

Live Long And Prosper!

2009-06-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

(^-^)'/|\/|) damnit im trying to make the Spock hand sign hehehhehe. so i have s t of a bad feeling about summer :[ not really sure what is going to happen. for a while now i have felt like i am losing myself there are times where i cant think straight anymore and i can get mad easily for like absolutely no reason at all. my emotions usually come out at night, like right now.. and i happen to break down -_-' i dont know why it happens but annoys me. i want to hit things really hard so i can forget about the other pain i feel in the inside, but i dont know what the pain is. i feel fat! i want to go run but like in the evening or sometime in the morning depending on my mood. i was never in shape but i miss how i felt like back in the days when i felt like i was in shape and my body somewhat seemed like it heheheheh. i have to start doing AB workouts but ehhh no me gusta doing them by myself LOL. im going to start to go to church during summer with my church buddy! i want to try to become more social! in college im either lazy, scared or dont even want to bother meeting new people. and ya...i want to go to disneyland!! ughhh! :t i make my life miserable when there is definitely no reason for it to be. i cant sleep, i cant sleep, i cant sleep, i cant sleep, i cant stop, i cant stop i cant stop, i cant stop thinking. oh got damnit! my computer froze!! right one "thinking." i hate my computer! but there is nothing i can do about it -_- oh wells. RAGING WATERS!!!! im scared of the big rides even if they are just water rides :[ i have a fear of heights :[[ LOL damnit but nooo im scared no matter what hahahs but i want to go to RAGING WATERS!!! :DDD i just feel like my love doesnt seem believable.. but whatever. i wish there was some way to see life without me ever existing. would people be happier? would have people gotten as hurt as much? whats more sad there is only about 3% of people that would care if they havent heard from me in a while. reasons why people dont know why i think about this is because im not crying out for anyones help. my life has been like this. i dont want people to feel like they have to talk to me or anything. i just keep that all inside me. i just hope in my life i can actually make at least one person proud of me. i dont know what else to put and i dont know what to do. so i guess now i well go off. bye <3>

ifu

You'll Never Be Alone Again!

2009-05-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

Woke up to my dead cell phone which is now charging O: i want to call her right now! but i shall let her sleep n not bother her! :D hehe :[ LOL!!! damn... its coming really soon... where i wont be able to see her for the longest time.. its going to practically kill me, i should know because just thinking about it feels like bullets keep hitting my chest, where my heart is supposed to be. but luckily she has it with her! :] hhaahahs "heads or tails? TAILS! ... its tails... ughhh its awkward!" hahahahahahs stupid tails! LOL yesterday was funny!! n.. interesting? LOL!!! sooo i noticed that the closet in my room isnt the only thing that makes loud noises at night 0.0 the stand where the tv is at in the living room seems like there is a creature crawling over it!!! 0.0 :[[[ save me! hahas damn i made everything difficult! we arent going to see each other as much all because of me! damn it..

You Are The Star In My Heart! :*

I'm Sorry.

2009-05-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

i messed up so bad, it hurts.
im sorry, im a fucken idiot.

I Don't Know..

2009-05-02T03:19:00.000-07:00

I hate these three days soo much.. i havent heard from my love.. i would try to call her just to see how she is doing.. but it always has to be when my phone is gone. fuck i hate it so much. i may have not lost her.. but im starting to get that feeling all over again.. its taking over me, sick like. i feel that if she were to ever call that i wont want to answer because of how i am feeling, which is just plain stupid. i need help. i need someone to talk to. i need ____ back in my life. but thats not going to happen. i need her. ivan was getting mad that i couldnt stop think of her. do i think too much? now i just know that, i go into my own little world, all over again...

ifu

NO QUYEN!! 4 Words!! (^-^)_Y

2009-04-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

You Only Live Once!

2009-04-29T02:50:00.007-07:00

8pm? hehe n that was my weekend hehe! now to test n see if this really works :D

2009-04-29T02:50:00.005-07:00

val of books. After we ate which was cool n sorry for yiqian n jesse for ditching you two! i thought you were gonna have fun like us! :* then got home at

2009-04-29T02:50:00.003-07:00

over it. On saturday i left gome at 2:30pm n came back home at 1:30pm on sunday LOL!!! N at 3:30 went out with jesse yiqian n emily to ucla for the festi

2009-04-29T02:50:00.001-07:00

to go to 'beckys' house ;D so we can eat hehe n we all ended up sleeping over herhouse hahahasia fun hehe and so randm! my mommy was really mad but got

2009-04-29T02:49:00.017-07:00

was the best of all i have ever had my whole life! doesnt even compare! n props to yi for the photo he took!!!!! :D hehe! then evrryone left n we decided

2009-04-29T02:49:00.015-07:00

n I spent it together! :D we were dancing upstaira n even on the edge of the balcony hehehe! then i was able to escort her! we had our slow dance, n it

2009-04-29T02:49:00.013-07:00

he didnt believe me until she asked <*3! ;* after we went to dance! soo fun. Then it was court, and man was that a looong as wait hahas as long as Regina

2009-04-29T02:49:00.011-07:00

ating her date to prom n she said no n she asked the same thing n i said no too.. N said that the beautiful girl across from me and i are together lol! s

2009-04-29T02:49:00.009-07:00

n funny thing half way in our whole conversation that day we introduced ourselves LOL n i bring this up because it seemed funny how i asked if she was d

2009-04-29T02:49:00.007-07:00

named sandy, if i can recall correctly, n felt that it would be more awkward just sitting there n not saying anything. So we talked n it was pretty cool

2009-04-29T02:49:00.005-07:00

h then went back to the table. Almost everyone happened to disappear from the table to take pictures n other reason i know not. So i was left with a girl

2009-04-29T02:49:00.003-07:00

ht when emily n i went in we got food then sat down and decided to get the caricature?? Idk if i got the name right heh that took about thirty minutes he

2009-04-29T02:49:00.001-07:00

if its not what i expect then damn alk this was for nothing hahahas :X anyways this weekend was one of tthe best i had in me life! hehe prom was fun! Rig

2009-04-29T02:48:00.003-07:00

d be awesome!! i can blog anywhere and have music anywhere n here bleep sounds when i text and have the enjoyment of texting!!! its all in one!!! n damn

2009-04-29T02:48:00.001-07:00

Hmm im not sure if i understand correctly but if i do then whatever im texting right now is going to be posted on blogger :00 hahahas imagine.. That woul

Blog Through Text!

2009-04-29T02:39:00.000-07:00

So there is a way to blog on blogger through texting! O: n way it works is, when you feel up your texting box on your phone thats one post.... so if you have fifteen boxes in your phone.. then thats fifteen blogs posted!!!! ughhh!!! i will use the blog correctly after i post my fifteen blogs LOL!!! its fine by me if you dont want to read it! :D now have a nice night all of you! and God bless, everyone! :D LOL!!!!!!! AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOU BEING WITH ME AND TAKING ALL MY CRAP THAT I HAVE TO SAY.. IM SORRY THAT IM ANNOYING.. BUT THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME.. EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT WANT TO ANYMORE OR EVER WANTED TOO HAHAHAHAHHS!!!! LOVE YOU ALLL!!!! ;DDDDD <3 AND <*3 LOVE YOU!

IFU

I Have To Change.

2009-04-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

I need to change the way I see things. I am really scared. I don't know if I clouded anything away. It just happens. This whole day I have felt an ache in my heart. A pain in my chest. I need you with me. So, today I went on an adventure with Jesse around Downtown LA. We ended up hiking on Griffith Park for a while. Then we went to the Griffith Observatory and got to look into the telescope and saw Jupiter.. kinda blurry. After viewing it, we walked out and saw a beautiful scene of LA. Then went back home and for some reason I want to feel depressed... I miss her.

The Reason!

2009-04-15T18:38:00.000-07:00

She is the love of my life! <*3
I love her! I just wish I can be as perfect as she is! I miss her, I miss her, I really want to kiss her AND I can! ;DDDD I wish I can be with her longer! I wish we can go out anywhere we want but that's something we have to wait for! ;*!! I'm sorry if I can't control myself when you say you have to leave...... O: it's not my fault!! It's your fault!!! because you keep turnin me on, turnin me on! LOL!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU REGINA! I'm yo baby, yo baby, yo baby, yo baby!<*3

Why Do I Always Get Like This..?

2009-04-15T12:48:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry.. I can't control myself. For reason I don't even know why, i get angry and depressed real fast and i hate it. Every time i hear his name I get jealous. I don't like that feeling. I don't know why i get jealous, I have never gotten jealous. I hate what I am becoming.

I Poke Her Face!

2009-04-10T23:58:00.000-07:00

:t im getting a lot of random feelings in my head... i want to do my best and give it my all to help but i cant :[ why was i brought here.. am i just going to be a nobody? i hate myself right now... i cant stop thinking.. i want to break down.. disappear.. !!!!! I FEEL GREAT NOW!!! I FEEL MUCH BETTER!! I LITERALLY DIED!!! I LOVE YOU REGINA! I LOVE MY LIFE BECAUSE REGINA IS MY LIFE! I LOVE MYSELF BECAUSE REGINA LOVES ME! I LOVE REGINA MORE THAN ANYONE AND ANYTHING! EVEN EVERYTHING PUT TOGETHER! champagne! red lights! somethings going down tonight! iFu <*3 rL
fuck you all! :]

Lets Take This Back To The Beginning

2009-04-08T18:58:00.000-07:00

i feel sooooo dead :[ i ran at almansor TU park today nonstop for one laps! on the last lap i sprinted trashcan to trashcan.. i was about to throw up but didnt -_x now i feel sooo weak.. after im done with this blog imma go play with Obi again :D hehe he always, always, always, always, last longer than me!!!!! D: lol!! i have so many things running through my head taht i dont think clearly!!! :[ but only one person comes to mind! <*3 i want to go to the beach!!!! i wish upon a star, that you still have my heart! im going 0n a road ME trip to washington sometime this month or next so i can visit my nephew n niece!! :DD<3>MANQUES heroes is starting to become stupid! the real story should be that after his encounter with his real father Sylar should go hunt other mutants?!?? i think thats what they are called?? LOL while searching he should cause destruction everywhere he goes! everyone he hates! everyone he ever trusted and ended up betraying him! make everyone suffer!..... i need you to see me thru! im starving for you love.. wth i just saw a cool SPRINT commercial and heard the word 4G.... wth?! i dont even know what 3G means LOL! but it sounds awesome! muahahahs but i dont have SPRINT anymore hehehehe i make her say! oh oh ohhh oh oh ohh ohh! when i p-p-p-poker face p-p-p-poker face!!!! if dying made your life better, then i would give life less than a heartbeat, just for you!

Something Terrible...

2009-02-14T23:40:00.000-08:00

jan. 31st. spent the last 14mins by myself.
last 5mins. just crying.
kept crying.
by myself.

this is who i am.
this is who i will always be.

i hate myself.
my ideas are stupid.
im not worth meeting in anyones life.
im nothing.

this is where i say bye to blogger.

2009-02-10T21:23:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY! <3>
so i ran today and omg was it freaken tiring -_-'

from the top of the pole i watch her go down!
she got me throwin my money around!
aint nothing more beautiful to be found!

im dead tired... but like always i stay upp... ughhh
i cant wait for 9!!!! <333>

i cant wait for disneyland!! ;D dayum how is this all going to work HAHAHAS

We've Awaken Somthing....

2009-02-10T00:15:00.000-08:00

soooo sunday!!!! got damn!!! it was the best!!! LOL!! ;DDD
soooo terribly confused that the curse may or may not be a curse! LOL!!!
only..... ummmmmm oh you know who LOL!!! so like stomach n my mouth hurt!! LOL
soooo much laughing n smiling heheheh
i watched coraline in 3d yesterday which is monday n it was pretty cool...LOL
hmmmm what to do.... damn hahahhahahahas
i hate myself!!!!! ;DDDD i really really hate myself...
but i love this feeling.........
fuck this isnt right...
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Troublesome..

2009-01-28T19:01:00.000-08:00

clubing?? ughhh again supposedly going.. -_-
do i want to... not really anymore. i did before.
but tmr i guess im going. i have been really tired lately.
my mind has started to run wild.. dont like how i think anymore.
things arent the way people want it to go.. and it gets annoying
that it happens to me all the time, especially when someone says
something to me and it just ends up being troublesome.

Something Understood Really Wrong..

2009-01-11T23:07:00.000-08:00

days go by,
i wish i understood why..
all i can do is sigh..
cause idk when i was living a lie...
:'[

live lie i wish i can just die.

everything turned out wrong..
if it could only have stayed the same...

"can i tell you something?
mhm
if you be my beauty, i will be your beast.."
LOL
i love that line :D

Only Way To Hide It.. Is To Not Show It...

2009-01-07T09:05:00.000-08:00

Instructions
underline under the sentence.. "why yes i am!"
two blogs before this..

The Dream....

2008-12-26T12:35:00.000-08:00

the future seems so perfect if it came out as my dream..
but.. damn it.. why was there church?!? X[ LOL jk jk hahas
no one can view my dream, so no one can picture how perfect it may have seemed to me..
but is this the beast inside me that is talking..

why dont you give me some love, ive taken ship load of drug..

2008-11-20T02:18:00.000-08:00

i see you in my nightmare, oh but how did you get there?
because we were once a fairytale..

what to do?
what to think?
why think?
why not think?
where does this lead?
where am i at?
why...?
am i tired?
yes LOL
whats with all these questions?
oh nothing hahahas just making you all think XP
am i talking to myself?
why yes i am!
am i fucked up... yes...

Roku, My Favorite Number..

2008-11-19T01:45:00.000-08:00

every time i close my eyes,
i picture both of us free..
from every thing,
that holds us back..
wishing may or may not come true,
but just thinking of being with you...
can actually make my day opposite of blue!
just being in my arms,
is like eating lucky charms! :]]]] mmmMMmm
i hope its not to late...
i want us to fly away..

watashi na..

2008-11-18T01:16:00.000-08:00

i love her so much! i miss her :[ i wish i can see her right now..
i wish i can be right next to her at all times...
work was sooo long today! i almost snapped at a customer :[
dont ever work at starbucks!
unless you can memorize things like nothing! then your all good!
LOL! every time that i think about me and Regina<*3 being together forever..
omg i feel so happy! i just cant believe we are together! <3>
it brightens my whole day up!!! i cant believe it!
i love the feeling of being with the love of my life! :}
damn i miss her soooooo much!!!!!
LOVE YOU REGINA!!!
My 1 & Only!
Star In My Heart!
<*3

The Best...

2008-11-17T04:16:00.000-08:00

i loved today... well yesterday!!
i was thinking 'damn it i dont care how long i have to work!
i have to see Regina somehow today!! or damn for some reason i would feel stupid...'
so after work I ACTUALLY GOT GO SEE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!!!! :]
I Love You Sooooo Much Regina!!!! <*3
i just cant wait when we see each other next!
i wish we can already be living with each other ;P hehehe
:] LOVE YOU CIELO!!! <*3

uso demo ii no ni ikanai de mo ienai yo.....

2008-11-15T01:05:00.000-08:00

so today at work was all good! oh just tried to reach you cielo to tell you that i love you soo much! and that missed you! :[ today was all good! until i had to also be trained for starbucks!!!! ughhh!!! omg that freaken register is hell!! it was my first day and like not even 2 minutes past and they were getting mad at me but yet they werent O.o it was so awkward :[[ but damn the touch screen register is to crazy there is like more than 100 things to click from all in total :[[[ they all expected me to know all of it before they even told me how to do it :[ those jerks! then i had another part 2 of being threatened and all those freaken coupons! but this time it was a lady! ugh damn customers! i got out of work 15 minutes after i was originally supposed to go out because of that freaken stupid coupon lady that didnt even have half the stuff she was trying to get a discount for! ugh! damn im so tired! i just typed the longest email i have ever typed in my whole life! hah i bet she cant beat me!!! even though she has tried before!... oh yea and has succeeded :[ damn for some reason it doesnt look like its supposed to be spelled like that... im not even sure if it is right hahahs dang i hope i dont have to work at starbucks tomorrow hahahas!
I LOVE YOU CIELO! YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! YOU ARE THE BEST IN ALL DIRECTIONS NOT ONLY IN THE WEST ;} hahas
with you,
i only wanna be true,
because you are the one i miss,
so where is my kiss?
i hate for ever making you sad!
i swear i only want you go be glad!!
so that when i am off near the sea,
you can be right next to me..
because you are my one and only!
just remember,
you Are,
the Star,
in my Heart!
<*3

i miss you love!! i cant wait to see you!!! ;[ in a long while :[ lol but its all good as long as we have each other! or as long as i have you ;} heheheheh LOL love you! nights! :] sweet dreams all!

Don't Leave Me.....

2008-11-14T21:30:00.000-08:00

:]

you said "when can we see next"
i thought how can you say that with such a face.
why did i think so?
i'll pretend like i don’t care and hear your excuse until morning since i want to be connected with you.
i don’t want to see your face, along the river meguro
unexpected developments, my cell phone dances
i want to forget if it’s a good-bye mail.
“hold me tight” but “i want to disappear somewhere”
any time you talk too much, you should know it.
i bluff but let you glimpse of my tear i cry
how much my tears work on you?
i want to be loved i try to be loved in my way, this feeling fills my heart but i can’t see you
i feel like i will never see you again.
i wish i could tell you but i can’t find good words.
maybe it’s okay if i tell a lie but i can’t even say “don’t leave me”.
the funny voice when you sneeze
your screwed up face when you laugh
your never stop sweat, your habit to wipe your eyes
boring your character
our styles of life are completely different
needlessly shy, a little tasteless
your annoying evil smile when you lie
your lie has come out already, what a drag
i just didn’t had a boyfriend at that time
it was a love to kill time
i said excuses to my friend
why am i following/trying to catch him?
your boring jokes are always too much
your talk never ends and i’m tired of it
i always locked the door of my mind? but now i knock your door
i want to forget if it’s a good-bye mail.
“hold me tight” but “i want to disappear somewhere”
any time you talk too much, you should know it.
i bluff but let you glimpse of my tear i cry
how much my tears work on you?
i want to be loved i try to be loved in my way, this feeling fills my heart but i can’t see you
i feel like i will never see you again.
i wish i could tell you but i can’t find good words.
maybe it’s okay if i tell a lie but i can’t even say “don’t leave me”.
when our hands holds apart,
do you forget
me someday?
i want to be loved i try to be loved in my way, this feeling fills my heart but i can’t see you
i feel like i will never see you again.
i wish i could tell you but i can’t find good words.
maybe it’s okay if i tell a lie but i can’t even say “don’t leave me”.

should've went to work..

2008-11-11T15:22:00.000-08:00

bleh im really pissed about the crashhh..... it wasnt even taken care of.. i didnt even know that i fucken got crashed... shit... well yea... been waiting for a while... guess nothing.. all imma do now is go out, get a drink, then hang with someone else later... byes :}

Crashed...???

2008-11-11T00:04:00.000-08:00

coming back home i realized i was crashed.... ugh stupid lady! w.e..... -_- the only day i went through the day without my life being a total waste was talking to the love of my life!!! other days where she wont be able to talk to me is going to kill me really slowly and painfully :[ i miss her soooo much!!!! i love her! she completes me! :] i want to hug her tight and kiss her! :* LOVE YOU BABY!! ;* <*3

Target Anyone?

2008-11-09T22:39:00.000-08:00

so today was my first day working... okay tahts all bye. lol jk i felt so alive when i read the text my cielo sent me ;} hehe sooo today i made new friends... and sarah liked me a lot! she said i was her best trainee!! ;P LOL nioce hahahas but damn... so much to learn -_- i think i got threatened today lol... hmmm... their were cool people.. i dont like eco people that have their own bags... waste of my time.... sooo many hundred dollar bills 0.o lol.... it was cool seeing my homies from orientation LOL and some guy that knows me from rhs but i dont know him o.O hmmmmmm i was test by the secuirty gaurd and past the test... lol and now he likes me LOL not in that kind of way -_-.... and yea thats about it i guess.... lol. i miss my love so much!! :[[ i want to be with her right now but cant :[ and i may not see her this week!!!! damnit :[ i dont like it at all no matter waht anyone says :[ but i love her with all my heart! :] <*3

MmMMMmm Chicken N' Waffles!

2008-11-09T00:47:00.000-08:00

today was great! i was able to go out and eat with my beautiful girlfriend at roscos chicken and waffles! heheh their waffles are the best!! mmm mmm MM! hehe there are soo many obama pictures LOL she showed me one of obama as lincoln hahahas nioce LOL with the beard hehe afterwards i was in a curse of food coma!! D: my cousin and aunt met her and my cousin couldnt stop talking about her ;P and how beautiful she is! my mom couldnt either! LOL i love you cielo! :] dang i miss her so much!!! i wish we could be next to each other right now! heh family friends came over..... ehhhh i love you regina! and i miss you so much!!! <*3
love you!!!! :*

Your The Best In The World! N' Your Mine!! :] Cuz Im Yo Baby Yo Baby Yo Baby!

2008-11-06T18:08:00.001-08:00

my love is the best! she is awesome! she is beautiful!!! she is soooo cute in sooo many ways!! ;}
no one can imagine how much i love her!! if you were to know you would die because your
head would explode!!! LOL true story!!! no no no lies!! she is my perfect Cielo! <33
you may think no one is perfect but Regina is! im not saying she does everything right ;P
but everything she does is the best and when she is wrong it always turns out to be in a
very very cute way!! :] i know for sure later on we will be able to hang out way more
and go to places and entertain ourselves in so many ways! bc she is will lead the the way
and get lost! heheheheheh you know i love you Regina! way more than you will ever love me! <3

ifu<33333333's rl!!!!!

I Just Wish...

2008-11-05T22:54:00.000-08:00

i wish we can spend all the time in the world with each other...
i cant wait for tomorrow because that is when i will be able to see and hang with you my Cielo! :]
it was weird at orientation.... i think... it was way to long! lol ugh... so gay...
i wont be able to see my Cielo on monday or friday anymore :[[ and when she has meetings...
its like we wont see each other that much :[!! dang it... i miss her so much!
i wish i can hold her in my arms right now! i want to feel her warmth so that i wont be cold ;P LOL!
she knows i love her more than she loves me! <3>
I LOVE YOU REGINA!! <3
i miss you so much!
ifu<3's>

Take It On The Otherside....

2008-11-02T01:26:00.000-07:00

i miss my very important call with her tonight because i was out.. :,[
a friend was scared so i picked her up then another friend...
we went traveling far just to come back to eat in n out..
in n out would be nothing without its thousand island sauce..
i really miss regina.. :,[
i love regina with all my heart! <3>
i wish i can hold her in my arms until she falls asleep.. :,[
regina still has to answer my question to "THAT"..
SHE IS THE STAR IN MY HEART <*3
i cant wait to move in with her.. if she wants....
i got to get through my classes!
i hope to god i can see her again sometime this week...
i really miss you hun!!!
i love you so much cielo!
i want you so bad!!! ;D
baby, im yours!
LYWAMHR!!!!!!<33333333

1 Month Together!!<33

2008-10-16T11:13:00.000-07:00

i love you regina! D:
i miss her so much! :{

so my first club may be a gay club -_-' just great! LOL today i am going to watch the rhs vs. ghs xc race... i get to see her there! ;} i may start to run tonight... ugh.. i always fail at sticking to run! i heard people are training again... doesnt really motivate me to run.. but when i hear about races... omg!! do i want to run again! for track..... f cross country! thats lame x] hehehe! but ehhh i still dont want to run -_- what keeps on running through my head most of the time is college... i want to transfer to uc irvine but idk if i can pull that off... :t most things in my family is going down...hmm hopefully what happens yesterday goes through.... i dont want to buy clothes -_- ughhh gay! but in the end of all i just remember about "her" and i feel great!

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANIVERSARY

Hopefully You Don't Leave Me...

2008-09-27T00:39:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun day! i forgot what happened bc im falling asleep lol... so i havent tried for the music thing yet hahahas ummm i went to a bonfire in the backyard of my friends house with bernie. jazy invited me LOL its so funny bc robert lives like 6 houses away from me and i drove there LOL!!! i met some new person named maggie ly?? i think idk... we played funny games after maggie and jazy left it got all awkward then two other shuey girls came that me and bernie didnt talk to and it was really awkward so we left.. came home n was just texting... being made fun of bc i dont go to parties or clubbing -_- lol i was invited to go watch iron man on wednesday, i want to go but idk if i am :{ after i finish blogging im going to watch naruto shippuuden hopefully i dont start crying hahahahahs! i want to buy a game called star wars the forced unleashed just because of some art that i saw from the game LOL!..... i really really miss my LOVE!!!! `:| love you cielo! supposedly im going to go clubbing which i dont want to... something was going to happen today, sunday, but i dont remember what.... i hate blogging.... i feel like drawing... what is blogging about?? i dont know if its like speak your mind freely or put whatever is in your mind right in that moment or plan what out what you are going to say or type i mean... i want to stop right now... lol now im really sleepy NOT!! well now me sleeps heh nigh nights! love ya!

Baby Come Back....

2008-09-24T23:34:00.000-07:00

today was a sad day....
i saw my kitty Roxas fall into the hands of his new owner..... lauren.. NOOOOOOOOO!!
:{ so so so so so so so saaaad :{but he is still mines!!! oh yea -_- and reginas.... LOL jk jk hahahhhahs you know i LOVE YOU MORE!!!!its ours! hehehe so it has been 9 days ;* ... i hope hahahhahahahas ehh i dont really like typing up blogs....... so i will end it here.... oh okay... i think i might try to make a song... but not sing it hahahas dumbass if you thought that hahahahs jk jk jk i mean sweet apple pie ;} hahahahs but jeaz... idk what about so w.e and goodnights!

love you cielo!!!
i really miss you!! :{
i really miss you a lot!! ((or is do i miss Roxas more....hmmmmm)) hahahash jk jk
i love you more than you love me! XP
i know you love and miss Roxas more than me but it's all good heh :{
<33

No One Is Perfect! Regina Is No I'm One! We Are PERFECT!!! <3333

2008-09-17T00:12:00.000-07:00

Perfect, was yesterday! 09/16/08
Everything went Perfect!!
A song which is messed up around 27 seconds, works Perfectly when i asked mi Cielo!
(the question!!! DUN DUN DUUUN!)
She said no :{ JUST KIDDING!!!!!!
OMG, AM I IN LOVE!!!!!!
I was speechless when she answered "yes"
I didnt know what to say... i was so happy, so full of LOVE!!!!!
I'm so happy i can kiss a guy and like it!! LOL jk
I am not gay ;* sorry to disappoint you Cielo!! ;*
This is all to new what I am feeling!
I miss you so much!!!!
I want to hug you for a long time!!!! ;*
I Love You, Cielo!!!!!!!!! <3333333
Blog you later!!!! ;}

dang it i typed this at night but i knocked out!! :{{{
im sorry Cielo!!!!
Love You!!!
byes!! <33

I wanna hold you hand.......... ;* :}<333

2008-09-15T23:22:00.000-07:00

i want you to know, that my feelings are true!! ohhhhhh your my bestfriend!!! ;* everything between us is oh so right! everything is magical! i forget about everything else! i love hanging out with my cielo!! she's my everything! every moment i spend with my cielo is absolutely the best! hahahahahas kitchen/bathroom! LOL if you remember what im talking about ;* hahahas since july 24 my life took this very awesome twist that i actually never expected to happen..... God, im glad that i was terribly wrong!!! ;* now... today was really funny!! bernie was going to flick a "leaf" but when he was about to, it moved away and it was a cricket and he yelled out "oh shit!!!" hahahash that was freaken hilarious hahahahahahs i finished two sections of my math homework today which is due this friday -_-'... our math teacher keeps on changing the due dates on our homework that nothing has been graded it online! LOL but when i checked today he added 8 more sections!!!! each section is about 32 questions!!!! so in total thats 256 questions!!!! ugh..... thats to many!! LOL hopefully i calculated that correctly LOL!!!! omg bernie and i are supposed to go talk to our counslers about our english class because we got english classes that are freaken easy!!! -_- so maybe i can get my money back.... its required for a newcomer student to make an appointment with the counsler and to take the orientation before getting your classes...... i didnt do any... i was like f that i lagged it to long that if i go through all that.. all my classes are going to close.. so i skipped all that and got my classes.... lol bad bad bad :t omg i miss her so much!!! i love her more than she loves me!!! <333333>

you know its true,
that i am no longer feeling blue,
now that i have you<3

tu me manques ;*
damn i dont wanna stop typing about mi cielo!! its like if im hanging up even though we are not on the same time :{{{ n mi cielo cant end this :{{ dang i guess i have to!!
until next time! <3>

September 12!!!! ;*

2008-09-13T01:46:00.000-07:00

so yesterday was really really one of the many best moments of my life with HER! ;* she makes me feel alive inside! if i am dead you can still consider me alive! SHE is the best!!! i wanna be with HER forever!!!<3>:| LOL afterwards i changed the jeep for then nissan and steven and i went to ono's.... D: mmmmmmmmmm hehehehehehh #2 is the best there!!!!!! :}} afterwards i went to 24 hour fitness with bernie with my free trial LOL worked out toooooo much :{ not that i love working out! :P i just want to be in shape for when track season comes.... or maybe the swim team... D: LOL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! <33333>

Cuz im yo baby, yo baby, yo baby..

2008-09-07T21:08:00.000-07:00

i finished my game super mario galaxy! i got all the stars -_-' lol and now i have super luigi galaxy... WOW all that just to play as luigi... thats lame -_-' yesterday was fun because i DID end up buying chocolate! >:P LOL! i loved spending time with HER! its always so great heh D: yesterday was awesome because of HER! but then SHE had to leave :{{ from hometown :{ everything was finished and yet bernie sacha edlin and melanie and i stayed till 5? hahahs damn... lol in the beginning our table was freken hilarious and the best XP heheheh all of us except for melanie went to almansor park to talk and fool around O.o lol it was funny. came home to talk to HER! :}} im starting to run i think, i hope.. planning on joining track but still not to sure heh D: i miss HER terribly! cant wait to talk you and see you ;*

Look A Dead Bird Flying!!! D: ;*

2008-09-04T18:24:00.000-07:00

hahahahahs you know i love you!!! ;* soooooooooooo these past days were awesome! i am liking school year way better than summer vacation!!!!! LOL i actually get to see HER!<3333>;P LOL jk hahahahs if she wants i cant force HER :t anyways..... lol. you cant find no one like HER! to bad she is mine!!!! :} wanna know why????? (to HER) cause im your baby yo baby yo baby! :}} LOL ahhhhh my class is going to start soon heheheheheh so scurry D: lol. i cant stop thinking about HER no matter where i am at... D: shhhh i am going to use a folder for my portfolio for english that i stole from HER! hehehe i stole it so that i could always remember HER but it got me sad at times... back then :t but now there is no reason in the world to be emo now that she is mine and i am HERS! :}} college is fun hahas the classes are too long for me to handle at times but hey i gotta make it through so things can really work out in the future! hehehe but i think i am toooo dumb! :[ LOL

before i thought things were too late,
but now things are going great! :}
;* <3

Baby, I'm Yours....

2008-09-01T10:17:00.000-07:00

omg im so sorry!! :{ idk what happened... :{{{ i think i fell asleep :{... okay so this is for yesterday lol yesterday my morning started off by going to eat breakfast but it ended up being lunch heh after we bought meat meet at a 99 ranch.. i came home and only had 20 minutes to pack for the race/concert! so i just grab a lot of random stuff dumbed it into the bag and drove off to ivys house, my sista from anotha school. when i arrived she told me i was going to meet her sister from her motha LOL and i was scared hahhas but when i got inside her sister was actually cool to talk to! hehe we were laughing making fun of people and talking. then ivy got ready and we went to patricks house which we met up with wilson then patrick gave us a ride to the NikePlusHumanRace when we arrived they were handing out free vitamin energy i went back and fourth and ended up getting four free lol it seemed like they started recognizing me D: hahahs i saw a lot of olympic people, well only like 5 people hahas but it was cool and randy from american idol and our mayor.... ummmm regoza idk how you spell his name LOL the race started, ivy and i ran together the whole time. there was this one point where i thought i saw bevis LOL we finished the race and watched a Kanye West Concert at the finish line!! it was awesome!! but the whole time i was wishing SHE was there.... i wish i was next to her the whole day..... it would have been freaken awesome if she ran and saw the concert too i wouldnt be the only one putting my hands up for a long time and singing.. i think... hahahhas the concert finished and we headed home.. omg i couldnt and still cant keep my mind off of HER!!!!! my favorite part of the whole day was talking with HER on the phone! i <3>

Nothings Changed, I Still Love You..

2008-08-31T01:37:00.000-07:00

today was fun in some ways! heh i loved talking in the morning with her :}} i always do! hehe i watched a video which was pointless bc i didnt get to finish LOL my mommy kicked me off the computer hah! damn... so to shorten things i went to target near old town with bernie and omar for and hour then the other hour at rite aid, jack in the box, and in the car LOL mmmMmmMmm then we watched hellboy 2 it was alright i guess heh it was funny bc some old guy kept on staring at us 0.o hahash but we stared back... well i did XP (hahahahahs i am writing the blog this early) XP then came home now im talking to <3333333!!!!!!!!!!!!!>

The Sun Will Shine Again...

2008-08-30T03:05:00.000-07:00

soo college life is coming up in a few days... not really excited for it.. i just wanna transfer! but i gotta put the effort into it now! heh damn it..i have to! my main reason to transfer is to see HER LOL i miss hanging out and fooling around with HER.. everything just seems different in ways idk how to explain... O.o i dont like the fact that i said we have to get used to not seeing each other, but i said that meaning we wont see much of each other during school time... it happened sooner than i thought it would :t i just finish talking with HER! :[[ i love our talks its always funny and cool and awesome! not you like :P jk wth i dont even know who im referring too -_- LOL but i really like whats been going on between us.. i've heard a lot of doubts.. and now idk what to think, because the most i keep hearing is.. you never know because what ever happens happens.. i guess i would say if you dont want it to happen it wont. why else would it not?? O: sorry but "mistoke" D: hahahahs :} your so cute!! i <3 you! .. omg half of this blog got deleted idk how... -_- i forgot what i typed.. ugh... damn well oh yea i dont like breaking promises and pinky promises so XP now i forgot the rest heh i guess blogging here i come, again -_- hahas well until next time i blog my friend! toodaloo 0.0 idk idk heh i miss you so much! i cant sleep your always in my mind! i dont want to get you out of my mind either! i heard it can be bad or that it is bad... but the h*ll with that i want you in my mind! w.e as long as i know your always with me in some way.. heh :} stupid i know bye bye

NOOOOOO <333333

2008-07-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG!!!! HAHAHS I ALMOST FORGOT WHILE AT SHAKEYS!!! QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!! jesse n i were playing the jumping light rope thingy hahahs so me and jesse grabbed the sides of QUYEN!!!!!! and picked her up and dropped her each time the light would be near her legs hahahahs it was going so fast it was funny!!! LOL hahahahahs it was fun picking QUYEN!!!!! up fast LOL but we lost :{{{{{{ but we were near the jackpot! LOL i almost forgot about that heheheheheheheh :}
<3333333333333333

DAMN HAHAHS SO FUNNY!

2008-07-16T22:08:00.000-07:00

so today was a very interesting and funny day! LOL so i woke up at 11 something today in the morning O.o LOL "i like girls/ they like me/ they look so good in their satine jeans!" i love that song!!!!! :} funny moments of today!!! first!! we all put in the tickets into the machine at shakeys today so we can add all our tickets together. then steven goes to the counter and starts to say oh i want two of those etc. hahahahs and the lady was like i have to see your ticket first!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHS it may not be funny for you but it was to me and QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :] hahahs SECOND!!!! me and QUYEN!!!!!! later walked on to another machine with a handle bar. at the same time QUYEN!!!!!! and i reached for the pole to grab onto it, we both realized that it was a metal pole so we both backed off at the same time because we got scared that it would be an electric pole! HAHAHAHAHAHHAS THIRD!!!!! funny moment was when we were in the car and i hit the edge and jesse's chin slammed against the side of the cars door!!! HAHAHAHSH dang it i know there was another funny moment but idk :[[[[[[[[ but earlier in that day regina was drawing in my book and she drew the funniest picture of rock lee which looked like a fat steven O: HAHAHHAS but she ripped it out of my jesus book!!!! :{ THAT JERK! lol then later on i was going to drop of QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but she never went out of the car for some reason O.o LOL!!!!!!!! so i dropped jesse then i dropped QUYEN!!!!!!!!! off home ;P HAHAHAHHAS see LOVE!!!! i told you i was going to post this before you!!!!! ;P LOL!!!!!!!!! noooooooooo QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaahs <33

DONT ASK QUESTIONS!! JUST GO!! <333333

2008-07-15T01:54:00.000-07:00

ME password finally arrived!! :]]] so its weird to type about the past but what the hell i can do whatever i want here!! :P so this day was 7-10 thru 7-11 i went to pay my respects for Mr.Zant... with jesse then we went to go eat out at a asian cafe of course :P lol while at the cafe QUYEN!!!!!!!! called so me n jesse were talking to her deciding on what to do.. so it led to picking quyen up to pay respect for ........ we were all there for a while then formed a small group talking about the supernatural D: but some things someone said didnt seem believeable at all....... no one knows who i am talking about hopefully ;P LOL so after our little group talk we went off to drop jesse home to sleep so he can get rest because he had to wake up at 4 in the morning. After dropping jesse off me and QUYEN!!!!!!!!!! went on a adventure into the dark D: it was pretty freaky walking in dark streets LOL but i would do it again hehehehe ;P i remembered promising QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not to scare her when we walked out of the car, and when we were coming back i unlocked the car and the alarm so my cars lights went on and QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yelled so loud that the ghost had to have fled from being terrified :P LOL!!!!! HAHHAHAHAS i had so much fun at night!! hahahs grats grats QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL so i drop QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! off home and go home, lay on bed, end up only wearing my.......... okay i wont go that far :b text QUYEN!!!!!!! to see if everything is alright but never get a response.. so thats when my <3> go home n cant sleep till 6 in the morning..... this was the worst 1 hour sleep that i have ever had in my whole entire life!!!! i had the worst nightmare in the world that it seemed like it was days in my dream even tho in reality it was only 1 hour :[[[[ to my rescue from my horrible dream, regina calls me asking if im going to practice! damn was i happy she called!!!! :D i go to practice n just jog for a while with steven :D get freeeeeee sleeeeerrrrrpyyyyy at 7-11 :DDD hehehehe then i go to eaton canyon with regina amy and their cousins hehe it was fun in the waterfall!!! i was really really dead from the hills!!!! :[[ i hate those hills!!!!! >:O then go home and talk on the phone D: lol..... now this is 7-12 i was asleep the whole morning.. called to go to xc's car wash n i was like "f that!!!!!" then later on went out to eat with jesse.. random phone call! HAHAHAS i called QUYEN!!!!!!!! because she never calls me! but she got annoyed i think... :[[[ so no more talk.... maybe northridge sometime in life for kathy???!?!?!??!?! O.0 HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAS now this is 7-13 the following day there was a social, i have never been to or heard of one..... barely got there sat down watch people get pwned by water balloons! hahahahas QUYEN!!!!!! was there!!!! then me jesse angeline and cindy went to crepe on a something idk what LOL but i had funnel cake n it tasted so gooooooooood!!!! besides the warm fruits o.O n the melted ice cream hahahahas BLEH!!! i had a little race with cindy even if she wont want to admit it :P went to wal mart with jesse and saw david dang LOL walking there for two hours not being able to find his uncle q: hahahas nioce! we end up going home doing nothing! i call QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!! again...... :[[[ yep QUYEN!!!!!!!!!! never calls me i guess that shows a lot a lot! ;P *hello *LETS GO! *what? *LETS GO! *where?! *DONT ASK QUESTIONS! JUST GO! *okay *alrights *bye *bye........HAHAHAS something like that...... LOL jesse QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kendrick and we stole steven D: end up going to quicklys heheheh mmmMMmmmMMMM vanilla milk tea D:!!! then plan on meeting angeline and cindy at very berry to play jenga and scrabble! HAHAHS i ruined every ones chance to use the 'V' hehehehhe O: then the most funniest thing happened!!!!!!! *steven leaning foward *ahhh!!! LOL QUYEN!!!!!! and i are the only ones that can have the craziest laugh about that moment!!!!! it was so priceless!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAS OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHS sorry steven!!! but that was the best!!!!! QUYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! has to agree to that heheheheheheheheh LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!! then later on i had to drop QUYEN!!!!!!! home :[[[[[[[[ because she didnt want to hang near me no more O: hahahahs we went to megans house which was hilarious because we all hid from her, kendrick steven jesse and i hahahahahhas but it was hilarious because i told jesse to grab the hose or hoes??? idk how its spelled but i put my hands on the on lever thingy majiger LOL so steven led megan out of the house which i turned the thingy and jesse wet have of megans body which she went running off seeming all mad!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAS i didnt care if she was because it was hilarious DDDD: LOL!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAS then she came out with a cup of water which we all fled except for steven and megan attacks steven :[[[[ awwwww poor steven!!! LEAVE STEVEN ALONE ITS NOT HIS FAULT!!!!!!!! :[[[[[[[[ LOL HAHAHAHAHs we end up playing twister which was really gay hahahahahhahas and later on seemed like yoga HAHAHAS played on the trampoline which was fun! megan kept on giving me a dead like that..... D: LOL we go home but after we dropped kendrick and jesse... while on my way to drop off steven...... D: there was some little black figure on the middle of the road..... i was getting closer put on the brakes and stopped right in back of it.... i was going to honk when i see its tail raising higher and higher..... steven and i were really confused.... when all of a sudden i yell out "F THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!" to realize, from spotting white on its tail, that it was a skunk about to make my car the smelliest car in the whole freaken world!!!! and my window was open! but all in the same moment of me saying "F THAT" i switched to reverse and slammed on the gas!!! going really fast backwards!!! O: AAAAAHHHHHH HAHAS i ended up taking a different route to make sure not to get a really bad smell :] and 7-14 i just woke up went to the mall with april to return a cd then went to a skating shop so she can buy a wallet then went to quicklys so i can buy my drink!!!! :] then went to brits house to own her in guitar hero but later on she owned me :[[[ LOL then dropped off april and headed home. later on went to practice played guitar hero in my car using my cars speakers then ran, played, ate 'we ner snit chelz' idk how the hell to spell that hahahas then dropped regina home! :] then came home to face the fact that QUYEN!!!!!! broke my <3> and she was trying to blame me :[[[ but all is good and today is 7-15 i wonder waht is going to happen today O: hopefully i dont take forever to type another huge blog..... i wouldnt even read this if i didnt type it....i wouldnt even reread it so if there is mistakes oooops :P LOL bye bye!!!! hahahahhas steven...... QUYEN!!!!! that was hilarious!!!! <3333333333333333333333333333333333333

D: Blogging to hard?? ;P

2008-07-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

hahahs so this is my second blog that im going to type, may be short or may not be... yo no se? hehe so to start this one off i think i am starting to understand what to do with this blog.. or if its called something else 0.o lol! im scared to type my feelings down because its pretty weird not remembering that i typed that other one like at 2 in the morning -_-' LOL seems scary for who reads it but it also seems fun :O :P kind of funny hehe because i dont know who reads this ;] but its all good heheheh thanks for caring quyen, shohei, and stanley! :]
p.s. i think i will post another blog sometime later on this day so i can get used to it.. :O ;P
n sorry if colors make it hard to read :P

Day 1: Feelings From Past

2008-06-29T02:07:00.000-07:00

I am sorry, but i have to apologize... I love you as a bestfriend but also a little more.. :[ Don't worry im working through those feelings to be completely different so that they can only be as friends :] I couldnt stop thinking about you for some reason. Even when my madrina was talking to me about.. you know... :P I'm sorry to be saying this well typing it but hey! im stupid like that. :)

my life is gray, but hey you always seem to make my day! <3

nioce i have never used this so idk what to put now :O